With my entire being
As much as this pain is affecting me
To the point when you truly just want to end it
I can't
My life is not in my own hands
But Heavenly Father
I just have to keep reminding myself
With the support of persons like yourself and many others
Never ever did I think the latter part of this ones life has changed so drastically
I truly am alone having to do things
My youngest has changed not for the better
But much like the mother of Eva
Pushing me around
How am I suppose to take something that is not in my control
There is this last little one I need to keep my head together
Nobody in my immidate family as they are not interested with the need for just a little help
Just a little help
Nowhere to be found
What hurts is I want to cave
And I can't
I carried my last child to date
And all that happens is I want
I want I want
And I won't give anything anymore
Let her understand all the little things I do
And she is so mean to me right now and I have to hold on
Hold on oh so tight
Me