I feel the same way I give up trying to do anything. My wife does not care thinks I'm so lazy and I make this all up! Right all the doctors are paid off by me with what money? OH she has all the power right now she says she brings in more now and so she can spend it how she wants when I made more we always sate down and went over the bills and I never spent money without her agreeing! So she goes out alot now and she even said she is taking her own vacation without me our the kids I said who will help me with them she just shruged it off, and said deal with it. I asked her why cant we all go? she said nope you dont make enough and your to sick! plus you are a druggy! I love her so much what changed her the fact of RSD and me being in pain? or was it the fact I made good money and now she does not have all of it comming in anymore. I wonder sometime when I get my settlement I will just leave her but I get scared for the kids, they are old enough yet they do think of me sometimes like her I was just a money machine for them I guess. Life stinks, my life stinks with this I hate it I want to just fall off a bridge but nope I cant not till OH forget it you all dont need this either.