Trying very hard not to use the word YOU
does anybody understand this
Can anybody understand this
As my cross is heavier
It is mine
To not beg is not my pride
As I would hope when someone asks me and I tell them they hear me
No I'm not okay
Something is going on with my body doctors are perplexed at what happens to my hands and feet
Black and blue
I had to do so much with the wet white loaf
I needed to get a new card from office
After bring her home bathing her down to freshen her up
Then to do that wet load
To come up make pasta for her
Fold the laundry
Get things ready for the morning
Brutal
Just brutal
I WILL CARRY MY CROSS
I WILL TAKE CARE OF EVA
AND SHE Will remember
I was never not here for her
Never for a moment have I not been able to see
I am constant in her life

Writing to Corissa and reminding her that this is not how a grown up behaves
And that I will not beg for something that is obvious if one hears and see
I can't do the things my body does
I will carry my Cross