I can see that you are having a very hard time with this. In the beginning for any of us it seems that we all do.

I have always asked why God picked me to go through what I have. Everyone has said God has a plan for me. I always say, I wish he'd let me in on it. LOL

I have had RSD since around 2000 but have been sick since around 87.

It will get better. You didn't say what meds you are on. I was wondering if you are getting adaquate medical care. A lot on here seem to run into that issue where the Dr. won't give them good pain meds or the right treatments.

There is a lot to learn and I am glad you found us here. Feel free to vent all you want. I do know a lot of what you are going thru except dealing with the mate issue.

I hope you start seeing some better days really soon. Don't give up.

Ada