I just loved the idea that squash couldn't be used to over medicate oneself.

Yes, laughed out loud.

But gosh, the rest of your post was so sad.

Here's the thing... I could hardly move when I had tetanus... so I was up to 280, and I really looked like a truck. I don't have the dynamite bone structure you do, so I was just a flat (pudgy) cabbage patch face. Gosh, it's very distressing.

So then I was having so much sleep apnea at night, and my statistician cousin died of that... so I knew I had to lose weight.

I have a page on my site about my weight loss... because I started out eating 3 saltines and a piece of pre-sliced cheese as a combination lunch and breakfast, then I ate half of my dinner entre that they bring me, and froze the dessert, and threw the rest away.

In two weeks I'd lost 1 pound.

I starved the whole time, and 1 pound... that meant it would take me two years to lose the weight I needed to lose.

DEPRESSED.

But then something really depressing happened, I have so much stress from the court things that get so much worse because of my brain damage and the corrupt judges, and so I ate a month's worth of frozen desserts in two days.

And, I did not gain any weight.

So that showed me that my metabolism takes awhile to catch on to changes.

So then I started exercising a couple minutes a day, literally two, three, maybe four, and I began to lose weight.

But I have to be so careful about stress. I can't let myself get stressed because I can't handle it any more. It not only tightens all my muscles again, it makes it so I can barely walk, then I can't exercise at all because I'm in bed, and then I gain weight and then I can't breathe at night... and once I really saw people in the afterlife... so that scared me.

So I totally agree with you, grab from each day what you can... enjoy... and don't try for too much... a little improvement is a good thing, celebrate it.

(((((((((Melody)))))))))

Gosh, I'm so glad you found the giant of the vegetables, and shared.