Hi thursday and welcome!
I'm so sorry that you're having a difficult time doing what you need to do in order to get/do better.
I'm glad you've found us. You'll find alot of great, caring, and fun people here. Being in a support community like this has helped me SO MUCH to retain the "ME" that I felt was slowly disappearing due to life and disability.
Take your time, look around and jump in when the water feels right.
Again, welcome.
KD