Since my last post all of my symptoms have seemingly gone...even when eating lots of gluten and chocolate...even at night...even caffeine is fine.

This also co-insides with having had my final check up from my acute pancreatic attack, which says I'm officially discharged as an outpatient...and basically fine. Despite losing 10-15% of my pancreas.

So since feeling symptom free I've found abstaining from drinking harder. In fact, it's almost felt like the first week again the last few days. I basically think about it all day. It feels like I've left half an uneaten chocolate bar somewhere and I've forgotten where it is.

I've not drank since 2016, and drinking caused me to nearly die with a pancreatic attack, develop PN and almost lose my business, my partner and my house. So I know I shouldn't drink...but it's hard! So far I just keep drinking a sparkling water and orange combination which sort of tastes like the alcohol I used to drink, and eating chocolate to feel like I'm treating myself!