Hi Gethprime: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Anxiety is something I have always struggled with as well. And as I'm getting older, it seems to be an increasing serious concern. I also spend quite a lot of time on my PC between being here on NT & on PsychCentral. It seems to help keep me calm as well. At least it gives me something to be doing.
I make it a general habit to be off of the computer by around 8 P.M. because I find that if I stay on much later than that it affects my ability to go to sleep when I go to bed. I also have a daily exercise routine & I do some mindfulness meditation... mostly of the walking variety. It all seems to help. Anyway... I just wanted to leave a reply with a wish that you might be able, in some way, to find peace within...