I have time for it not in my control
As this sadness is not in my control
It is all the time
Always there lurking
And I call upon Heavenly Father
And I still haven't got it
It's not going away
As hard as I try
It is utter disparity ashamed I am
As I still call for him
I don't have the nerve
And I won't do anything just wait
And wait and wait
I have a child that I will leave behind one day
I hope she remembers how hard I tried
I tried my best with the older ones
And I just don't care anymore
It's all I can do
And when it's over it's over
Just like that
It happens
Just like that
Carry it till it's my time