I don't think you read my next post and the ending. I think we are very much alike and we are both survivors. I don't understand why don't suffer from the same depression I have unless you just manage it. I totally understand your love and delight of animals. I understand corey. My soulmate was an alcoholic who was much younger than i and he tried to kill himself twice, the second time he succeeded and hung himself from a tree. He had terrible depression.
I used to smoke so much and I didn't care. Prices got out of hand and I had to quit. I used to take care of the little girl across the street for free. taking care of everybody elses needs but your own. my bipolar hit me when i was young and not diagnosed til my fifties.
love
bobby