I think a lot of your milder episodes fly under your radar. So if you are feeling like you are hypo and heading towards mania, you must have good reason, and I'm glad you are trusting your instincts. There are reasons why you don't trust your pdoc. Maybe it's because she doesn't trust your instincts?

I'm glad you've decided to medicate. I know that Zyprexa has worked for you in the past, and you know the proper dosing, but I would raise the Abilify slowly though... maybe by 5mg every other day at most to minimize s/e.

(((((HUGS)))))