I feel like I am sticking up for my own needs today but it is at a loss.I have been like this all my life in variations. when I got Pumpkins, my beloved kitty cat and introduced her to flora, it seemed that pumpkins fell in love with flora and couldn't get enough of her. I loved Pumpy but I asked flora if she wanted her. I don't think it was poor self image or I that I didn't feel I deserved her.
I do hope I like this woman. Now I feel I am sacrificing for Alicia. I forgot if I mentioned that I have given her a lot of nice things because I want to see her happy.