i agree, i love coming to this board once a day, or at least every other day, to get support and just see through the internet world, a few friends who are living with rsd.
i have had my days, and weeks, and even months of horrible depression, so i understand 1to talk, but i came out the other end. ;et me tell you, you need to get better care. you need to talk seriously to your doctor to make sure you are not over medicated or taking the wrong medications, and you need to talk to a counselor or social worker about your family situation. many of us end up in an abusive relationship and feel we cannot get out of it but once you 'out' the abuser, things will get better. you need to take charge of your rsd care plan and not be a victim. make some calls today. ask here for help. i can only tell you, if you wait for someone to save you, it will probably never happen. we, each in our own way, have to be in charge of ourselves and demand the best care or it does not happen. joan