I didn't know yo account ate someone
Is not a good deed
I am being judged as
Adults who act like children who's children
The loves of my life
And is meant to have fun and no worries
Are taking and invading even more of your space
I didn't know I had to explain to someone who's language I understand and know when aren't welcomed
And accepting everything today as acceptable
No it isn't
There are rules for a reason
I did not make them the law schools place where you live if not yours even then you must comply with zoning rules
I am sick and tired where my kindness is mistaken for stupid take advantage
And when it comes to my family advantage they are
I haven't heard from my middle sister in I don't know how long
And you know
The usual as if I am the one in the end of their desperate times do I hear from them
And I listen and I tell them I won't kill my self so you can't either
I'll be here as long as I breath
I pray Heavenly Father will not let it hurt when my time comes
I know it could hurt a heck of a lot more
I don't feel like making an appointment with the vascular doctor
My neck head shoulders hurt so badly
Things are changing
Not for the better being on my side most of the hours in a day
Don't get me wrong all that has to be done gets done if I can but most times I'm in my bed
As it hurts to hold my head on my body
Actually just below the cut on my back right under it across my back
The pinching the charge goes up into my brain into my eyeballs everything about my head gets a jolt
And my hands if I could only post a picture I did not do it you would see what I'm talking about
I'm being judged by my child of not being nice
That I'm mean
I wish I could let loose sometimes
But screaming get me more pai and nowhere
It is hurtful not to have support without it being bothersome
As if I were a problem
I would love to be dotted on once in a while
Not to hurt is my second wish
To listen to Heavenly Father
And let all of it go
And just live knowing what it is to be like when serenity sets in
I listen to the radio
A station with songs I grew up with I'm 56
Mass was on at 5:30
For the second week in a row the priest put his political ideology out
That was not his job as a catholic
To hear the word of our Father was his job
I was appalled changed the station and listened to baptist service
Jeez does that now make me a mean person
What is it that honestly good is taught
My grandchild sat played with her toys
Then to watch a few children just have no control around others
As they took a little girls toys who came with her dad
And he walked over to this annoying bunch of people drinking loud
Started picking up his childs toys they made their own
I get sand kicked in my face by an adult
Turned and said
"Are you doing this on purpose"
And that was all it took
I'm sickened with how my child was encouraged by such behavior
Thought they weren't out of control
It frightens me what she is attracted to
Gone she asked me if she was ever man handled by a police officer
I was numb
Couldn't believe what I was hearing
Heartbroken I was
Just heartbroken
Today I call upon the angels
Heavenly Father hold me up to your standards
That be a decent human being
No I may be misunderstood
But am a good loving mother grandmother friend lover animal lover
All I look for is honesty
Not my honesty
It is hard to come by
And I am so not perfect as I am human
I work at what needs to be done
It's another day
Don't want to be in it
It's how I feel
And have someone who needs me
Got to do what I can
I'm I good person
Me