I wasn't raised in a traditional family. I went to a private school where there was only one other jew in my class.I have never fit in. after my explosion when i was 35 I was afraid of life and afraid of death. I became friendly with a much younger Jewish orthodox Jew and boy did we talk. I had studied the I Ching and she said my beliefs were like orthodoxy. that is how I got into Judaism. She is still one of my very best friends and lives in Israel now and has cancer. This is the first time I reached out for a dinner.