Sorry I was in pain yesterday, I felt alone and gone in a dark world. I feel like a fool for what I did and said. My life is hell and I should not go off like that what a mess it was.
The darkeness overwhelmed me and took control, I do go to see a shrink and pain doctors, I do all the breathing and relax stuff. some times it does no good when stress and pain are so high. Lord knows my family could care less I feel my wife is far diffrent now she feels like I did something wrong for not working and bringing in the big money, my kids just dont show much feelings they do show the fact money is not there anymore. We live in a great area and money matters! so we might have to go live in a smaller place we can afford, and it wont be on the right side of town how spoiled can we get, I think what did I do I raised them wrong! and my wife has to work and we had to sell some stuff so I'm a BUM for not taking care of them! a druggy, and a faker!
So lif is great so far..