So there's hope then. Lol. I'm going to truck on with the citalopram and perhaps change to escitalopram if needed or whatever. at least it sounds like you don't have any anxiety anymore. I'd give my right arm to be in that position again. So perhaps we are talking about two different things... As far as our disconnect..... I'd like to think mine is anxiety related. I don't know. Heck.

If I take a baby Xanax the surreal goes away which makes me think it is just a hyper stimulated central nervous system state I'm in. However I refrain from taking them and just try to get on with it and "que sera sera". Im trying to take it day by day....Patience certainly isn't my virtue though. I just want my life back as I knew it

Take care