I went to the doctor on Thursday, and had another blood test. My Doctor called me today, and said the test showed that my kidneys are showing more of a problem, and he wants me to have a ultrasound next week. The Hospital called, but I didn't answer. They called me before my doctor called.

He said that he studied my medications, and wanted to know what I ate. He said that I have been loosing weight, and I told him that I'm on a diet. I've lost around 35 pounds.

Okay. Now I'm scared. Are they going to take me off of my medications. Do I have cancer or something like that.

I don't have family to talk about these things anymore. My Dad, Mother, sister, and best friend have all passed away. I got this news on Friday afternoon, and I cannot arrange a meeting with my councilor. BF

I've had problems with one of my eyes. One of the things in my hobby are coming to an end. I feel so depressed, scared, and angry about the hobby situation. Something else is bothering me. BF