I think i am going to start going to the senior center again. I am so isolated it is really getting to me big time. I am not even enjoying tennis. I am still really irritable. Marcia called and asked if I missed her. I said no. Later I tried to make up for it and said yes I miss you because I am happy when you are here. that isn't true anymore. That isn't true anymore. She is wonderful but she can get on my nerves.
The table I sit at at the senior center gets on my nerves. I miss mike. I will sit at the same table and then maybe make an excuse that it is too painful without Mike and I need to switch.