It's been a horrible summer
My 19 year old taking flight
May have been home in total a week in 3months
I have nothing good to say other than
I fear that phone call
She is entertaining sex drugs unprotected drinking
I haven't spoken a word of it till now praying all would calm and we could with a prayer and hope she would come to her senses
Not the case
Alone I am with Eva
Tomorrow she starts first grade

I start the morning getting her ready at six
My gums are swollen
My teeth always been in excelllant condition
Something is going on with this body not for the better
I need to see a vascular doctor
My hands and feet are just out of control
In the morning my toes both feet white until I massage them same as hands veins swelling and popping
I am falling apart
Since oncologist stopped tamoxifen
There has been a discharge I never had
Never having an issue of that kind ever I've been very lucky till now
All of me just wants to disappear
I can't eva needs me for as long as Heavenly Father keeps me alive
Till then
My eyes and face swollen from the tears
I'm utterly confused and terribly horribly sad
Me