Behind my back
For years I would ask my child
Please return to school
Get your diploma
Texting calling with no respons
And I find out
She is following the money her father continues to feed her
It is so much bigger all the work I have put into laying a foundation for her
And I found out that she was with her father taking her to school to register
He himself I found out much later
An illiterate
Though when it comes to money and his business flooring
All cash
We do understand why
Distant we are
But the truth hurts and sad when she too follows the money
May she find herself
But I cannot lie
How it went down is affecting me on so many levels
Corissa is gay
But now living with a young man who lives with his mother
This makes her father so very happy
As he never accepted her as a lesbian
So to please him for the sake of money
And not be true to herself as we spoke about it many times in detail
Tells me mom I've tried I am a lesbian
Back with the same boy
As he is so immature
Will not wear a condom
Do I need to say anymore
I pray as her health is compromised
And oh Lord to think a child could be a possibility
She is a sickle cell trait child
He Africa American prevalent in that culture
How do I let all of it go
I pray and pray and pray
Help me with this dear Father
Help me give it ALL to YOU
My will comes back in a cunning way
I know it
Way much
Way to much
I'm killing myself
With my will in the way
Cunning
Satan at his best
Me

Addiction
My child will not return calls or texts
I have blocked her for the first time
No contact
Why
Because I am not even worth the time
But as dad is now in the picture
I call you back it my dad
Okay
So be it