Her to step up
She wants it and here goes

1:00 AM I text mom Eva is up sick with a cold vomiting
To give the school a call by 7:00 provided her with the number to call
She texted me back to confirm
As I haven't slept in I don't know how many days attributing to my erratic fluctuations of my pressure
Sending her a picture of Eva asleep with her vomit bucket with her favorite scent in it as like myself very sensitive to smells
There are a very few she loves and it calms her
They are soft like baby powder
To add to this she is given a wipe with her choice of scent on it every morning as it calms her stomach
She reminds me so much of myself we both have weak stomach
Just a example and the experience I have
Back to mom
At 6:15 AM I sent her a picture of her as Eva still asleep with her bucket in her face
I remind her to call by 7:00 AM
TEXTED HER FOUR MORE TIMES
No response
I begging to call her 10 times no answer
I call their house phone no answer
So in the end I called the school to let them know she will be home
In the mean time the father calls at 7:25 AM asking if everything is alright
I tell him what happened
And he begins to make excuses
I told him to knock it off
This is what she wants and it is 8:21 AM awaiting her mother to call me
She is still sleeping

I ask what do I do
Do I look into having her home schooled
This is what she asked for and I had to handle it
I don't have to say what my pressure is


Then after blocking Corissa
Somehow she was able to call the cell phone and I was tending to Eva
She called last night around 7:30 ish I did not pick up
And while tending to Eva I missed the morning call
Reluctantly I call
She answers
And the first thing out of her mouth was
Why do you have me blocked on house and cell
My response to her
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE IGNORED
She says not good
I said it again
How does it feel
NOT GOOD
I then tell her am I to be taken for a fool
Do you think I would put up with what is perpetrated upon me and not do anything to stop it
How does it feel Corissa
She then says I'm in the bathroom and she tells me she would call back
That was a half hour ago

Again
I ask what do I do
The father is three weeks late with support
Was suppose to come up with it yesterday
Left with $62.00 paying all bills and rent for October
I'm left with $62.00
Support is minimal and are late
I do not get it
Yet he can get his haircut biweekly
I had shot hair at one time
Since my retirement I have no funds to even get a hair cut
So it has grown and am doing the best I can trimming what I can as it grows out
And to think this doesn't add to the stresses is so upsetting
I do without so much since becoming ill
I just can't wrap my head around this all
It's draining me of life
And it must stop
And yet I need someone to take her in the morning
My only concern is she leave this home happy with no worries as the family adults just don't care
It is now 8:44 no call from mother or Corissa
And me and Eva have the best I have to offer her
The best I can do
And she knows
She knows I'm her everything and tells me over and over again
Thank you mimma for taking care of me
Thank you
I tell her no thank yous necessary
I will alway do for you as long as God is in my heart Amen
Heavenly Father hold me together together in this unpredictable day

What to do
Dear Father how much more
How much more
I must stop and just do
I cannot fall to pieces
She needs me
And I will have to calm myself
I will stop here and do some meditation
READING THE BOOK
THE WORD THAT WILL BE JUST FOR ME ON MY DAY
9:53AM NO CALL FROM EITHER