I'm like you, normally happy bouncy and cheerful... even when life slams me into the depths of hell, I normally just bounce right back up again after a good cry or some self-loathing but it's not a state that "usually" lasts for long. But every so often I get the blues... nothing in particular happening or some times something crazy has that I know I would have bounced back from and yet I'm not . I feel especially bad for my family who is too used to me being "happy" 24/7.

I haven't taken anti-depressants though, the blues do eventually blow away and I'm able to combat the desires of suicide (which when they kick in so far has meant the blues are close to ending). I have thought about medication for it but they put me on an anti-depressant when I hurt my back and I was near hysterical all the time and couldn't sit still or be quiet for more than 60 seconds (I was timed)