There is this hole in my heart
Since a little girl
Trying so hard to heal her
A never ending task
J think how dark the abyss can be
How hard to heal
As I watch Eva and see me
Me
And I try so hard not for her to have ANY WORRIES
But she has
I can see it
It's there
Deep inside her
And I try to not let that horrible feeling to find its way to her heart
What a brilliant little angel
How can the adults not try all they can to put their lives in order
Look at this little girl
To
LOOK AT HER
mom falling off the wagon
Going to try and speak to her today
My youngest calls
Tells me she is depressed
Hangs up and never calls back
I don't know anymore
I just don't know
For if I did not have the almighty holding me together
I just don't know
Her mom just cannot stay away
And the other is following right behind
My boy not a word
My eldest I haven't a clue
As for myself
I have the jewel
And am having a little trouble getting help
Getting her off to school
You would thing all else aside
I would get the help needed

Oh dear Father
Kneed this heart back to a place
I can do it
I can do it
Lift the pain this body suffers
Let me not feel the hurt having to push myself
Let me not be angered by what has happened
I trust in Your promises
I trust that I know better
Help me make it happen
Allow this body to feel good
Not to give up
But
To understand the difference
I cannot control anything but
Me