Hey! I am no expert at all but maybe i have some ideas that can help you.
First of all, you are NOT crazy! It may seem so and it can feel so real, but it is not.

Lyrica is said to stop new synapses from forming. Maybe that is why it takes so long to recover from.
Both ashwagandha and bacopa stimulates dendrites and axons to grow in the brain. So this could be of some help.

Ashwagandha
Bacopa monnieri

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There are many reliabel sources. And remember that there is always HOPE!

If it doesn't work we must ask Elon Musk for help

Take care and hang in there.

And sorry for my english, it is not my first language.