I know you are not comfortable going to temple alone because you didn't grow up going, but if one of your nephews offered, would you go to services with them on the holidays if they invited you?

It sounds like Robert will never understand BP. I'm very sorry about that because he is such a close friend
Some people are like that tho. Even people who believe in it don't understand it, and can be very hurtful (to put it mildly).

Are you still just drinking one cup of coffee? How is your stomach feeling?