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Originally Posted by Mari
Good for you. Sometimes agitation can spur me to the point it scares me.
In the past, even if I was not agitated at the moment, I could pull it out of
me and become wild enough that I got what I wanted -- not often
but a few times and it saved me from getting angry. Agitation from me just makes people listen to me and move out of the way whereas full on
anger could have gotten me locked up.
Now I am over medicated so much that
that does not happen.
. . .nice to have bipolar skills if you think about it.
(Try to find the benefits where you can.  )
M |
I used to a "tell it like it is" type of attitude, I was blunt, but not in a rude way. I rarely lost my temper, but I was never afraid to tell someone where to go if I had to. But there were plenty of incidents in the past where I became agitated or ****** off and took it too far, especially when I was drinking…
Between the all the Seroquel I take, and increased problems with anxiety, I have mostly lost that fire. I let a lot of **** fly that I never would have in the past, but sometimes my old self makes appearances.
Agitation can have its benefits, I get impatient and tired of rude people and let them know I'm ****** about it, but it upsets me after I have a significant reaction to something because I'm not comfortable with confrontation anymore. It gets results, but sometimes I don't feel like I have enough control over myself, which is something I do not like. If my agitation is severe because I'm manic, I literally have to isolate myself because I have almost zero control.