Dear Eva. I'm so sorry you are going through this. When I feel lost and alone I pray to God to help me find my way and hold onto blind Faith that I will find my way. God has never let me down and I believe he won't let you down either. Take care of yourself and your Granddaughter and hold onto Hope One Day at a Time. God will take it from there. Just keep moving forward. That helps me with my troubles. Sending many hugs your way.