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DB has OCD - odd numbers, can't cope, to volume has to be on an even number. We get bye, we adjust to one another quirks, it's what people who function do. Mine is less than it used to be, but I'm working on it. I can't bear things out of place, having to suck it up now. Home from hospital, can't even bend over to pick something off of the ground, tried a towel ten minutes ago - it had slipped off the rail, forgetting my strict orders. Very quickly my back spoke up. Have gone to bed, so tired, not sure I can do all this, this time round. Just too tired. Things will fall back & slide, nothing I can do, nothing....

Hang in there Eva, hold on

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Originally Posted by eva5667faliure View Post
If I may
I err to the side of order
Everything has a home
The hangers that hang in the closet aren’t measured by a ruler as I can eyeball pretty
The dirty laundry gets a quick fold befor it goes into the hamper
Having four grown children
Adults
And a grandchild six I have custody of since an infant
Of them all my son and my granddaughter have OCD
my neurosurgeon did not address this disorder
As a result I did not fuse after my first ACDF 5/6-6/7
And second surgery botched took my life as I I had it
Changed forevermore
In hindsight I went back to work two weeks after surgery
There I failed myself
Never imposing my disease upon my children
I at a very young age still single digit number in age
I knew something was different about me
I’m now in the later age in my fifties
It is still very much alive in my life
And found s way that “it” is under watch

It is something I welcome
It is the way I get things accomplished
There have been two Jones I worked in my lifetime
One a display company that still uses my orderly method
And a file folder company and they too still use my orderly method for their company

You would laugh if I told you the process of me brushing my teeth

My friends amazed at my methods

My family allowing me the freedom of my disease that helps on many levels

I divorced at 24 with babies to raise
Something I did with my OCD

The one terrible thing with my OCD and when I suffered severe PMS is when I needed to be left alone
Many years
My children amazed how I new if something was moved just a smig

I have learned to use it as a tool
A very important one
And not to impose it upon anyone
I have a problem with uneven numbers
Yet as a designer know it is in the odd numbers of design foes it work
So that just a taste of my disease

I come here today
In a mild depressed way
Having no control over anyone in my life
I now speak of my troubled babies
A difficult road they all are traveling
And here I find comfort
And love that helps this soul
And I too want to give back
With my experience strength and Hope
Welcome
Love
Me
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