We bottle things up to protect ourselves.
Just let a little out at a time. That's the only way not to overwhelm yourself.

I had that good therapist for something like 7 years before she left the practice I go to, and she doesn't accept my insurance anymore. My new therapist is a very nice lady, but she doesn't "get" me, and does nothing for me, except make things worse... I'd get agitated following appointments. So, I don't go anymore.