You are amazing
In everyway
You have a mind and body only you know
The fear we go through
Not knowing
Having to wait
The doctors who just DO NOT GET IT IR GIVE A POOP
just an hour in my shoes I tell them
Just an hour having no relief
Just an hour nobody listening to them
Just an hour
Of being accused of being an addict
Just an hour of being alone
Just an hour not believing them
Just an hour begging begging just kill me
Just an hour
I have you in prayer
I have your back
I have a friend in you
You are dear to me
May I return my experience strength and hope
We are very very strong woman
We have tolerated more than most
And yet we still do do and do
We are not forgotten
May one day just one see what it takes to get up in the morning and ask Heavenly Father
Help me in this day
You matter in everyway
We may not understand why what and when it will all get easier
But like myself
I have but one who needs me
That be Eva
Today I take her to the dentist
A job her mother should be doing
I have given up on any hope of help
Just yesterday a very dear friend who is home for a short time before she travels back to her family in Florida
Says Eva your hair has gotten so long you look so good
I just cried
Thank you I said
And she understood
As she too has invisible pain
I haven’t been able to get my hair cut
I have given up and thaught it be easier to just let it grow out
A little lipstick
And that all I do
It isn’t that o want to look sick
It is the misunderstanding as it is all inside hidden from the naked eye
And I will never allow myself to look disheveled
For as long as I can take a shower and smell fresh
Have Heavenly Father in my heart and remember to keep it that way
To have a beautiful grandchild who needs my everlasting love
The few doctors who listen and know as they have been with me from the very beginning
There are a few very scary things going on and must be addressed
I am taking it slowly
Said to myself
What tha rush
Thinking of you as I go through it by myself
Love
Me