I use to have allot of energy. Not in the last five years. I thought that it was the medications. One day about four weeks ago, I felt like my old self. I had the get up, and go. I went out to Lowes, and Walmart. When I was leaving Walmart, my knees were hurting me, and I lost most of my energy. I went home.

Sometimes when I'm taking a shower, I have to sit down because I have no energy. Then I get up again when I can get some fresh air. I think that the steam get's to me, and I start coughing sometimes.

I hope that my bil reconsiders what he was thinking of doing. At times like this you need you're family to stand with you, and not reject, and abandon you. He shouldn't reject me for having all of these problems. I can hardly believe this. Is this my bil? Families are families during the good times, and the bad.

This abandonment is a cruel possibility. What if I end up living on the streets. That's a cold, frightful feeling. BF