thank you to all that are supporting me I have planted a tree and I am going out everyday to look at it and tend to it but I am finding that everyday seems to get worse not better I just need the hurt to stop I just don't feel there is anything for me anymore without jeff I am lost I try and do thing everyday to take my mind off of the hurt I am feeling I look after the alpacas but there is no joy there anymore it just seems to hard.