thank you guys. thank you, thank you, thank you. thank you for speaking the truth and not just what i want and NEED to hear. i have been "detoxing" my brain today and trying to flush out this filth that keeps festering. i slept thru the night last night and i got a NAP today! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!! if i would have brought my kids with me, i would have been even more... well, you know. i finished a movie and i got to read a book. i cooked some steaks for dinner. the only down side to today is the pain. i have not taken that medicine continuously (...frogga...) as i should. i know i need to take better care of me.

as for my sister and her family, i am going to let it go. she knows what she needs to do. i really believe that she is living in her own hell with her husband and my biggest concern is making sure that my children know how wrong it was and that what happened was not their fault. i know you guys have encouraged me to turn them in, but i just can not fight another battle. i am praying for my sister and her family and will continue to do so, but my first concern has to be for the safety and welfare of my own children. i have to save my family first and foremost.

i have really found so much encouragement from you guys and as kooky as it might sound, you have saved me.

shalom,
ang