I’m trying, I’m taking the exact amount of painkillers I need to and they make it hard to function let alone hold a conversation or make decisions. What I do know is I know myself, he is in lust, it will wear off, I might not be willing to take him back when he comes to his senses, by then I will have begun to live a life not walking on eggshells in fear of tipping him over, not doing his animals, not getting him ready for work so he doesn’t lose his job, by then I might be happy to be just myself xxx