Adversity in everyday
Depression stay away have no time for you
Not to let it get the better of me
It work
It’s hard work
Nobody said it would ever be easy
It isn’t a good feeling when one feels alone
It too is work
I am responsible for my happiness
I will not let depression set in like it wants to
I feel it creeping in
I must shut it down
It hurts so badly
16 pills in my day
I don’t want to take even one
But this is where my life is
A slave to the medicine
Without them I would pray to die
I would be lying if I said I haven’t prayed for that
But it isn’t over yet
Not here on earth
Theses thoughts in my mind
How do they get there
Why the ones that make me sad
Why can’t it always be in s good space
What am I afraid of
I’m afraid of the uncertainty of where I’m headed
It has always been difficult
I make it look easy for everybody
I just do
And in the end it is what it is
I need to snap out of certain moods that strip me of who I want to be
I want to be fun
Laugh
Do all the things I can’t
I stinks today just for now
Only for now
To cry it out just for a bit to hope the day gets better is my hope
To put a smile on someone’s face would make me happy
I have my little Eva who is asking me
Are you okay Mimma
How can I say no to her
I have to do my very best to make her day happy
I am responsible
Heavenly Father thank you for what I’m about to receive in my day
May I remember to always thank you
And never forget it is all in your hands
I trust you to take care of me so I can take care of them
Amen