The holidays are a challenge to me. I have a lot of anxiety during this time.
WE drive 2 days to Indy spend a couple of days there before we have christmas eve dinner with hubbys mom and brother. Then head up north to my folks house for christmas day. hubby will hitch a ride from one of my sisters back to indy and I will stay there for 4 more days and then drive back to his moms house before new years eve.
There will be a chaos mess at his moms house and I get very stressed out there. So I gave myself permission to stay at my folks house.

Jeff can deal with the chaos at his moms.
She would rather spend time with jeff alone I believe. I think she thinks I interfere, try to boss her around. I wish she would move to an assisted living situation but she refuses. She is very frail and elderly and has fallen once. Some how she still drives and has recently been hospitalized and rehab for a couple of weeks and now uses a walker. I spoke with her other son and asked him about laundry. She refuses to use a laundry service or have an aide come to help her. She doesn't want him to do her laundry either. She can't go in the basement where her washer and dryer are...so who is going to do her laundry?????
I love her and she is very stubborn.

I am going to try to not drink over the holidays...must come up with an action plan. I could drink O'douls(non alcoholic beer) but why drink extra calories when I could just make tea? and use stevia to sweeten???
Save money and something warm to drink at my parents chilly house.
I used to have to run hot water over my feet to warm them up before going to bed.

I have a few more christmas cards to send and need to get my mother something else.
anyway.
The holidays are hard.
bizi