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Grand Magnate
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Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: new jersey
Posts: 3,523
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Grand Magnate
Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: new jersey
Posts: 3,523
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As the years get closer
What happened to all of us
We were little a long time ago
And are these giant grownup that have no clue
We go through the motions of our daily routine
What happened to all the hopes and dreams
What happened to the spirit of Christ and his birth
Did we forget Emanuel
What is in the spirit of the Christmas holidays
For me
Family
To want to be in each others company
To WANT to be in others company
It is here we Ill be a family
We have each other that will have a part they have in this family
A seat in their role as when they were born
My fathers bitrhday it will be in another day
Its been 47 years since we had him live in our company
Cant help but wonder what happened
Why did he go
So many unexplained questions that surface at certain times of the year
My youngest all in her glory soon to be twenty
Not a clue yet about where she is headed
It b
Needs to start
Thats all there is to that
Start somewhere
School a part time job
Driving lessons
I am so happy she is home
Doing so much better health wise
She hasnt gotten a uti or any problems in that neck of the woods
I have been holding on
Giving her the time and it is here
She has a deadbeat father
Does not a thing to help her in the proper way
And it can be done
It is a difficult thing to have to deal with but know I will not give up on her
She will find her way
And it starts with the support of ones family
To have your family as your cheerleader
She can do it
And will do it
I have hope that she will see
There comes a time when I cant do it alone
It is s very trrrible place
And to watch your children not know how to lay s bill
Or what it means when abody is feverish I have a way
And with Eva here what better time to teach her as she said she would take care of her if my time come
So just reality
And it is tough
Very tough
Just to put someone else before self
It isnt easy but so can be done
I have hope I can help as she the one who had to go through the time her sister got high and they took the baby away
She is still going through those feelings
As it is a job to take care of another that is small and grows in ones care everyday
The people she is dependent on
I just want to cry
It hurts so badly
She is such a fun kid so smart
Still not exposed to the outside world other then the kids in school
And thats not cool
Thats not what it was like when my kids were in school
Its my limitation
And then a family that is scattered
Terrible that mom and dad not allowed without sipervuson
Where is the other grandmother
They live with her
Andbin the same time
Eva is reserved not to want to be there
She doesnt like it
I never ever speak or ask what its like when she is there
I hoped it was fun
Only to find out differently
I am so torn up
Into a thousand pieces
Never to be put together again
The pieces wouldnt fit
It would have changed
What can I say
I wish nothing but happiness for my family
Let the time together mean something
And notbe unhealthy
Let it be a good feel
Let it have a good feel
Please let the year strengthen them not to ever give up or give in
You sll matter all
Injesus name
Amen
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