That yucky feeling one just wants to go back to sleep
Blank what is wrong
What is wrong
Having a horrible time not wanting to feel
Just want it to pass
Waiting waiting waiting
For what I say to myself
What do I have to wait for
The sadness to pass
It got me good
I want it gone
Be gone
Right
If it were that easy
Be gone
I really think I am affected by the weather
It’s been like this since I got sick
8 years ago
8 years of my life
Taken me under
It stinks
Stinks so badly
Don’t know what to do with it
I can’t take it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
I want it gone
Forever gone
It grabs me and won’t let go
I don’t want to feel anymore
I want not to feel anymore
I have to work so hard to make this all find another home
It can’t stay with me
I can’t keep this up
I don’t want to keep it up
I am not where I want to be
I am not productive like I would like
I have this hole in my gut
It seems never to want to heal
Never close
I have no time to struggle with this anymore
It seems to be enough already
Like I’m whining and I’m not
It is rotting foul and has no room in my life
So with all my might
I ask that this leave as it came never to return
Find another place to go
No me
Not now
Not
Ever
In Jesus name
Amen