I love cashews! They are expensive tho. You don't have to throw them out... you may want them later, or maybe you can gift them to one of your friends.
I'm sorry you feel out of control
When do you see your pdoc next? I remember at one point you were thinking about asking him about trying the Rexulti that helped me. Did you ever ask him about it?
I'm glad you like the protein drink. I hope it works well as a meal replacement for you