Only fools rush in, and I am not a fool. As things stand, I can’t see a breakthrough. I’m lonely & scared but those 2 things combined are not going to push me back to a relationship.

I’m mindful though of something I have personally encountered over the years of pain Mgt and psychs and my sister who is a nurse voiced it on Xmas eve, her exact words were psychs just encourage you to leave, they will give you workbooks on how to leave, they don’t give workbooks on how to work to save the relationship. And ironically it’s true. My psych has given me 2 books to “leave” the relationship & I understand db psych has been telling him to leave me for the last 2 years.

So in all, perhaps we are neither destined to work it out.

I do believe in féte and the inevitable. I can forgive a once in a life time indiscretion, I can’t forgive ongoing lies and deceit.