I'm glad that at least mood-wise you seem to be doing better than you were when you started this thread

It's great that the Rabbi came to see you and is going to visit more regularly. She seems like such a nice and interesting person. It's always good to have pleasant company.

I'm sorry that your nephews don't treat you better, and you are left with conflicted feelings about what you want to say to them, and whether or not you want them in your life because of how they treat you. You really deserve better, and they are really missing out

I am definitely mentally ill too...
Sometimes I wonder what and how normal people think...