Eva has your state passed legislation for legal MJ? Is it worth enquiring with your physician again? I’m told some states while not legalised if neighbouring states are GP will provide a script to be made up in neighbouring state?
I have no words to offer you for the depression, it is a horrid place to be in. All I can say is my tears which were once never ending are dried up. I no longer cry at the drop of a hat. I still cry in situations but the endless tears, they are gone.
Sending you much love and hugs