I went back to taking 400mg of gabapentin last night, but I feel worse this morning... now it's an anxiety BOMB

I made things worse for myself by texting my sister last night about her withholding all of the family pictures and my half of my mother's jewelry from me for over 20yrs. For some reason this has become very important to me again recently, and has been weighing on me. She's an a**hole, so she said a lot of things that bothered me, but the worst of it was, "I know that your memory and perceptions are not what they once were." I said I would not respond to that BULL S***. She says that I feel like she's my enemy and I think she's out to get me (LOL), or at least that's what she wants to turn this issue into. Anyway, I got nowhere... for now.

I have an appointment for a mani/pedi at noon. I have to go because the polish on my thumb is chipped, and I can't get this kind of s*** off myself. I have no idea how I'm going to be "normal" for 2 hours, aside from trying to be as quiet as possible.

I may have to break my rule about not taking more than 1mg of Klonopin and driving. because after taking it, I'm still soooo f***ing miserable