Hi everyone well I am still here and I don't cry everyday as much now I am learning to get on with what I have been given, I still miss jeff very much I have a diary that I tell him about my day, that helps I am still very lonely for him but it is a little easier now after 3 months, and I would like to thank everyone for there support in the early days when I needed to talk to someone, it made all the difference as if I spoke to a councilor they call in the mental health people that want to send you to a mental health ward because you tell them how you are feeling, but you say these things when you are very much not yourself if that makes sense, I know I was not myself just after jeff died I was a mess and it takes time to come to terms with what has happened.