I couldn't agree with you more, Bobby.
Bizi, I'm very proud of you for being able to face your past and some of your current problems. I know that all of this must be extremely hard. You are showing a lot of inner strength
It makes sense not to make a fresh start with your husband by buying a new house if you don't feel your marriage is on solid ground. I'm very sorry
BTW... 14lbs... wow!!!