What I’m feeling under my right arm pit and behind the balloon just doesn’t feel normal
My appointment with my oncologist is end of February and and I gym March
If the pain under my arm pit doesn’t subside in a day or two I will call the oncologist
As I have been taken off the tamoxifen with the bleeding and what’s happening to my hands and feet
I’ve been on it for five and a half years
What it does is shut my estrogen in my body
Now there is activity going on
And the kind of breast cancer I have is driven by estrogen
I have spotted twice since being off the tamoxifen and like now a one pimple on my face
A indicator of hormones at work
My fear is not only what I’m feeling
But that this particular kind of cancer like to metastasize to bone and lung
I need to stay positive I know but tell this brain that and with everything that has happened I don’t want it anymore
I’m so done
Holding on
Oh Heavenly Father hold me tight
Me