A tdoc who only wants you to talk about "happy things"? I think that defeats the purpose of therapy, especially now when you could use someone who will let you address your fears...

But you do need to see someone before March 6th.

It is a shame that your pdoc can't squeeze you in much sooner... most pdocs would be able to make that happen. Would you be comfortable asking her to refer you to someone she respects and thinks would be a good fit for you, and has more availability?

I'm glad that going to the beach helped a little.
I hope you find more sources of comfort and start feeling better, Mari