I'm a failure. I'm weak in mind and spirit and if my mom could see me now she's probably turning over in her grave. I just need her to say BJ it will be okay.

I've been sitting in my yard all day even though there's 95% humidity. I took this pic of my Rose of Sharon. My mom and I planted this and she wanted me to have it. I won't go into the religious part of it but it means beautiful woman. I'm not feeling very beautiful right now.