You showed a lot of insight in that post, Bizi. I hope that getting all of that out helped you a little

There is a lot of shame associated with drinking (for people with drinking problems). I know I still carry it with me. Indulging in those thoughts is not helpful. But it seems like you recognize the pitfalls of drinking and benefits of being AF, and I think more than anything those kind of thoughts will help you. And I think it's great that you've been thinking about alternate activities

On the lighter side, congratulations on losing those 13 pounds!!!